Well hello there! It's been a while..

Look who's back! It's been a couple months short of a year since I last blogged. A lot has been going on since. So, where to start? Let's just jump in somewhere!

Christian Graduated Pre-School!

We are so proud of him. Shortly after he graduated, we had our last field trip with the class and his one teacher pulled me aside at the park and went over his end of the year evaluation. She said he had been having trouble with his emotions again and just wasn't being himself. Christian has always had a problem with dealing with his emotions and other issues with himself and others. One night I was giving the kids a bath and was filling the tub up, I turned it off to where it wasn't even over their knees, I let them play and when I started washing them off, I turned the water on to rinse them off, as soon as I turned the water off, he started panicking. He put his hand down on the bottom of the tub and started measuring the water, at least that's what it looked like. He had a complete meldown over the water being too high. We took him a couple days after that to the doctor for his kindergarten physical and we brought up what his teacher had mentioned and some things we've noticed over time, she said she does believe he has aspergers, High functioning autism. We are waiting to see a behavioral specialist now. Since looking through stuff about it, it feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, but at the same time another pile of bricks have been put in its place. I just want to help him and I'm not very familiar with what I need to do for him so seeing the specialist and getting some help will be nice for sure! Christian started tball this year and it has really helped with his feelings and understanding things more. I can't believe my little guy is starting kindergarten this year!

For Delainey, not much new has been going on with her, we took her to her urologist appointment and found that her right kidney is smaller than the left and that her right does have damage but that all the swelling has gone down FINALLY! PRAISE GOD! 

Greyson was born with a birth defect called Hypospadias and Chordee. I never heard of it before I had him. He had repair surgery April 25th this year, we recently found out that his surgery did not take and that the original hole reopened. I've had SEVERAL people write me and tell me how selfish I am to put my son through surgery that is just a doctors way of circumcising boys. First off, he is MY child. You have your opinions, and when you have children, you can make decisions YOU think is best for them. My son was not born with foreskin like a normal child, as plenty cases of Hypospadias don't. I trust his urologist, as he is the doctor that did my daughter's surgery in April of 2010. He is an EXTREMELY good doctor and knows what he is doing. He plainly told us there was a chance that it wouldn't work, as most surgeries have a risks that it won't work. We are evaluating him for a while and then if his urologist feels that he does need another surgery later on, we will go from there. On another note, Greyson is crawling, trying to walk, he turns a year next month! 

Now that I've went over the kids lol Let me get down to what exciting news we have! We decided to look for a house. We found a really nice subdivision in a city closer to Shane's work. I told Shane I wanted to stop in and see what they looked like, then after driving through the neighborhood, I told Shane I wanted to go into one and see what they look like inside. We stopped by the office and he showed us around a couple of the houses. WE FELL IN LOVE! We decided to go ahead and try to see if they would approve us for it, they said we were applicants, but had to fix Shane's credit a little, so we buckled down and paid off everything that  the loan officer told us to, opened up another card, have been paying double on everything. She told us that she would rerun his credit July 15th. THAT'S THIS FRIDAY! 2 MORE DAYS!

EEK! we're so excited but yet sooo nervous! I have put it in my head that she will say that we need to wait a few more months, so that if we do, it's not a big deal and if we get approved, THAT'S GREAT! 

Now onto something I have been dreading to type so I left it for last. 

When I was pregnant with Greyson, and went for my anatomy scan, they found a cyst on my left ovary. They told me that it would probably go away after I had him so I didnt stress about it. After I had it, they found that it instead of getting smaller or going away has gotten bigger. Since I had blood clots in my lungs when I was pregnant with Delainey, I couldn't take the birth control they use to shrink it, so she said she was just going to wait and see if it would shrink, but told me that she thinks that I would need surgery. About 3 weeks later, I went for another ultrasound to check on it and it in fact, had gotten bigger, so she scheduled surgery. I am set to have surgery on July 20th, which is only in 8 days. I went yesterday and had my pre-op appointments. The lovely nurse blew my vein taking my blood work and my arm is really bruised, swollen and has a lump under the skin. I am having my left ovary taken out with the cyst, getting my tubes tied and getting my Paragard out, she thinks I might be having problems from it as well as the cyst. Im terrified, but ready to have this over with! 

On my last RAMBLE, were going on vacation next month for a week! I  CAN NOT wait! 

Life..

Things here are going pretty good. Christian turns 5 in 2 days and his party is in 4! We've ordered his cake, paid for his party reservation, got most of his presents and finally got his invitations out this Monday. I'm starting to think im just as excited, if not, more excited than Christian is about this party. This is the first time we are able to have his party somewhere else other than the house. One of the parents from Christian's classroom called today and told us he was coming to his party and I got extremely giddy and Christian was like "eh". I don't think he realizes what kind of party this is going to be! Christian also fell today at school when they were going out for their fire drill. He's been trying to learn to tie his shoes and during group time or nap time at school, he will tie his shoe laces together and they untied them and had to run out of the door with them untied and one of the girls in his class stepped on the shoe lace and he tripped and hit the concrete. Delainey is growing up so fast too. I really hope she gets out of this phase of her wanting to be held all the time and whining. Greyson will be 7 weeks tomorrow. Shane started his job and we get benefits now! I can finally go get glasses and get my teeth looked at! Im extremely proud of Shane and what he has done for us. My parents are also looking at a house they might buy and just bought their new car. Im really proud of them as well. Shanes parents are coming in, in about 2 weeks.. Im really excited to see them!

Poor Little Guy..

Greyson has been screaming and fighting to eat and keeps throwing up. I called his doctor and she finally called back and told me a few things to try before they stick him on meds. She said if it doesn't get any better to call back and they would put him on meds and maybe want to do an xray. It seems like every night is getting harder and harder.. I just wish there was something I could do to take all his pain away.. I feel helpless!

I've been breastfeeding a month!

I hit my month of breastfeeding mark, and to be honest.. I feel amazing. I NEVER would have thought that we would have made it. Things haven't been the easiest but we made it! He's not really taking to a bottle or pacifier, but that's okay. He had his 1 month check up the other day and I almost cried, he weighs 10pounds 12 ounces and is 22 1/2 inches long now. Something that really  amazes me is that I haven't spent one dime on his food. MY body helped grow him for the whole pregnancy and then now my body is producing food for him to eat. I have never felt so confident in my body. So here's so me and my sweet little guy and our 1 month mark! 

2 weeks Old

has it really been 2 weeks? well, almost 3 now? I want to freeze time right now..  :[

He's getting so BIG!

My little Big guy started his first day of pre-school on the 1st. He absolutely loves it! I could only get this picture by calling him out of his trance of how many toys and kids there was by saying "christian lets take a picture for daddy". Right after this picture, he went right back to playing and didnt even notice I was there. I had to go to him and say "Christian, can I have a hug and kiss before I leave?" When we picked him up, he was excited and you could tell on his face that he had the time of his life and was so eager to tell us what he learned. I have never seen a kid love school and learning so much. He makes me a proud mama for sure! Lainey, when we left cried and said she missed her bubba.. I took her to the park and we had biscuits together and played, went shopping and then met daddy for lunch at Pizza Hut. I'm extremely proud of my family and couldnt imagine life any other way. Heres a picture of his what he did on his first day..

Introducing Mr. Greyson Urijah Vanwitzenberg

Me and Shane woke up at 4am on Thursday morning, packed the car and made sure everything was up and we left. I had been having contractions all morning and had them all the way to the hospital. We got to the hospital at 5:30, they hooked my iv of fluids up and got me admitted. They started my pitocin at 6:35. I tried to get some rest around 7:20 and woke up at 8 to the feeling of me peeing on myself and thought my water was leaking but I felt like something else was coming out besides water. I told Shane to go get the nurse and she came in and checked and said that it was my water leaking I started gagging. She laughed and asked had my water ever broke before and I told her not on its own and I asked her if I could go to the bathroom, she helped me to the bathroom and I was bleeding really bad. I looked back and saw there was 2 clots that were the size of my palm on the bed and asked if it was normal, I could tell she was trying to keep me calm and finished helping me to the bathroom, I was having contractions and labored in the bathroom for a bit and got back to my bed, I laid back down and felt that feeling again and told her something else came out. The two nurses just stood there looking and looked at each other and said they were going to go get the dr. I knew something wasnt right. The dr came in and checked me, I was 3cm, 70% effaced and he was at -1. She went ahead and finished breaking my water to check the fluid color. All I heard was "mark it was MEC" which with Christian, he had meconium in his and thats what they said then. I started getting worried and the dr told me I was doing good and that everything was going to be fine. I prayed and told Shane It was going to be okay and I started having intense back labor. It literally felt like someone had a dull razor scrapping at my back bone. Breathing didnt help, focusing on something didnt help and all I could do was shake and cry. Shane told me to look at him and said "Kari, if you do have an epidural, you wont be any less of a person". I cried signing my papers and felt like I had let myself down, but it didnt last long lol. After I got my epidural, I could actually feel and move my legs, sit up by myself, I just didnt feel the pain. I called my mom and told her I got the epidural and she told me I was doing good and that I shouldnt get down on myself. The dr came in and checked me while I was on the phone with her. She said I was at 5cm and 80% and he was still at -1. I got off the phone with my mom and said I was going to call my grandma since she had been asking about me. I talked to her and she asked me was I feeling any of the contractions and I told her I could feel when they came and went but didnt feel them to where I was in extreme pain like I was. She then asked me when I thought he would be there and I laughed and said "The dr said by 12 we would have a baby, its almost 2, and wheres he at?" lol right when I said that, I felt this horrible pain and tried telling her I had to go, but I dont think any of us knew what was happening. lol Shane ran and got the nurses and he came back in and she checked me and I believe she didnt think I had progressed that much and when she checked, she said "Oh wow! We have a baby to deliver!" and told me try not to push that the dr was coming, I was laying on my left side because thats the only way I could feel comfort, because it felt like I had a knife in my back. The dr came running in, and told me to put my legs up and I was holding my but up in the air so that my back and but wasnt touching the bed and she laughed and said i couldnt deliver like that, and that I needed to let go of the bed and put my hands behind my legs and push when I felt the next contraction. I instantly went into this trance, I stared at her in her eyes, didnt scream, didnt cry, didnt talk.. nothing.. all I could hear in the room was my heartbeat and I could feel myself waiting for that feeling and whenever I felt anything close to that, I grabbed my legs and pushed, Then I heard Shane say "Baby, his heads out!" and didnt stop pushing.. He came out in that 1 push and was tangled really bad in his cord. I lifted up to see him and she was untangling him from his cord, and when she finally did, she handed him to me, his head rubbed against my face and it was like a feeling I cant explain. I didnt care he was covered in everything I was gagging about earlier, I just felt like i was ontop of the world. I asked if they needed him and they took him and did his assessments. I delivered the placenta while watching them do their assessments on him. and the pediatrician came in and checked him out. I sat up in the bed immediately and the nurse came over and said "You really dont look like you just had a baby" I felt like I was on top of the world and nobody could stop me. I ordered my lunch and the pediatrician finished their things with him and gave him back to me, they did find a birth defect that will require him to have surgery, but i think hes just perfect.  Hes such a good baby and breastfeeds like a pro! 

Introducing Greyson Urijah Vanwitzenberg.. 7lbs 10oz 21inches long born at 1:58pm on August 18th, 2011 :] 

I absolutely adore my family.. I honestly feel like I was suppose to be a mother to 3.. I cant believe he's here and Christian and Delainey are def proud as can be!