Poor Little Guy..

Greyson has been screaming and fighting to eat and keeps throwing up. I called his doctor and she finally called back and told me a few things to try before they stick him on meds. She said if it doesn't get any better to call back and they would put him on meds and maybe want to do an xray. It seems like every night is getting harder and harder.. I just wish there was something I could do to take all his pain away.. I feel helpless!

I've been breastfeeding a month!

I hit my month of breastfeeding mark, and to be honest.. I feel amazing. I NEVER would have thought that we would have made it. Things haven't been the easiest but we made it! He's not really taking to a bottle or pacifier, but that's okay. He had his 1 month check up the other day and I almost cried, he weighs 10pounds 12 ounces and is 22 1/2 inches long now. Something that really  amazes me is that I haven't spent one dime on his food. MY body helped grow him for the whole pregnancy and then now my body is producing food for him to eat. I have never felt so confident in my body. So here's so me and my sweet little guy and our 1 month mark! 

2 weeks Old

has it really been 2 weeks? well, almost 3 now? I want to freeze time right now..  :[

He's getting so BIG!

My little Big guy started his first day of pre-school on the 1st. He absolutely loves it! I could only get this picture by calling him out of his trance of how many toys and kids there was by saying "christian lets take a picture for daddy". Right after this picture, he went right back to playing and didnt even notice I was there. I had to go to him and say "Christian, can I have a hug and kiss before I leave?" When we picked him up, he was excited and you could tell on his face that he had the time of his life and was so eager to tell us what he learned. I have never seen a kid love school and learning so much. He makes me a proud mama for sure! Lainey, when we left cried and said she missed her bubba.. I took her to the park and we had biscuits together and played, went shopping and then met daddy for lunch at Pizza Hut. I'm extremely proud of my family and couldnt imagine life any other way. Heres a picture of his what he did on his first day..

Introducing Mr. Greyson Urijah Vanwitzenberg

Me and Shane woke up at 4am on Thursday morning, packed the car and made sure everything was up and we left. I had been having contractions all morning and had them all the way to the hospital. We got to the hospital at 5:30, they hooked my iv of fluids up and got me admitted. They started my pitocin at 6:35. I tried to get some rest around 7:20 and woke up at 8 to the feeling of me peeing on myself and thought my water was leaking but I felt like something else was coming out besides water. I told Shane to go get the nurse and she came in and checked and said that it was my water leaking I started gagging. She laughed and asked had my water ever broke before and I told her not on its own and I asked her if I could go to the bathroom, she helped me to the bathroom and I was bleeding really bad. I looked back and saw there was 2 clots that were the size of my palm on the bed and asked if it was normal, I could tell she was trying to keep me calm and finished helping me to the bathroom, I was having contractions and labored in the bathroom for a bit and got back to my bed, I laid back down and felt that feeling again and told her something else came out. The two nurses just stood there looking and looked at each other and said they were going to go get the dr. I knew something wasnt right. The dr came in and checked me, I was 3cm, 70% effaced and he was at -1. She went ahead and finished breaking my water to check the fluid color. All I heard was "mark it was MEC" which with Christian, he had meconium in his and thats what they said then. I started getting worried and the dr told me I was doing good and that everything was going to be fine. I prayed and told Shane It was going to be okay and I started having intense back labor. It literally felt like someone had a dull razor scrapping at my back bone. Breathing didnt help, focusing on something didnt help and all I could do was shake and cry. Shane told me to look at him and said "Kari, if you do have an epidural, you wont be any less of a person". I cried signing my papers and felt like I had let myself down, but it didnt last long lol. After I got my epidural, I could actually feel and move my legs, sit up by myself, I just didnt feel the pain. I called my mom and told her I got the epidural and she told me I was doing good and that I shouldnt get down on myself. The dr came in and checked me while I was on the phone with her. She said I was at 5cm and 80% and he was still at -1. I got off the phone with my mom and said I was going to call my grandma since she had been asking about me. I talked to her and she asked me was I feeling any of the contractions and I told her I could feel when they came and went but didnt feel them to where I was in extreme pain like I was. She then asked me when I thought he would be there and I laughed and said "The dr said by 12 we would have a baby, its almost 2, and wheres he at?" lol right when I said that, I felt this horrible pain and tried telling her I had to go, but I dont think any of us knew what was happening. lol Shane ran and got the nurses and he came back in and she checked me and I believe she didnt think I had progressed that much and when she checked, she said "Oh wow! We have a baby to deliver!" and told me try not to push that the dr was coming, I was laying on my left side because thats the only way I could feel comfort, because it felt like I had a knife in my back. The dr came running in, and told me to put my legs up and I was holding my but up in the air so that my back and but wasnt touching the bed and she laughed and said i couldnt deliver like that, and that I needed to let go of the bed and put my hands behind my legs and push when I felt the next contraction. I instantly went into this trance, I stared at her in her eyes, didnt scream, didnt cry, didnt talk.. nothing.. all I could hear in the room was my heartbeat and I could feel myself waiting for that feeling and whenever I felt anything close to that, I grabbed my legs and pushed, Then I heard Shane say "Baby, his heads out!" and didnt stop pushing.. He came out in that 1 push and was tangled really bad in his cord. I lifted up to see him and she was untangling him from his cord, and when she finally did, she handed him to me, his head rubbed against my face and it was like a feeling I cant explain. I didnt care he was covered in everything I was gagging about earlier, I just felt like i was ontop of the world. I asked if they needed him and they took him and did his assessments. I delivered the placenta while watching them do their assessments on him. and the pediatrician came in and checked him out. I sat up in the bed immediately and the nurse came over and said "You really dont look like you just had a baby" I felt like I was on top of the world and nobody could stop me. I ordered my lunch and the pediatrician finished their things with him and gave him back to me, they did find a birth defect that will require him to have surgery, but i think hes just perfect.  Hes such a good baby and breastfeeds like a pro! 

Introducing Greyson Urijah Vanwitzenberg.. 7lbs 10oz 21inches long born at 1:58pm on August 18th, 2011 :] 

I absolutely adore my family.. I honestly feel like I was suppose to be a mother to 3.. I cant believe he's here and Christian and Delainey are def proud as can be! 

Look what I just got!

Stationery card

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isnt he just the cutest? I love him to pieces! 

Been a while.. but a lot has been going on..

The last time I updated was about my 10-11 week OB appointment and going to get a new vehicle... well we didnt get that vehicle and actually got screwed over but we took it as a sign from God and ran with it. Im 14 weeks 1 day now. I swear I feel the baby move and have for the last couple weeks. I have an appointment on the 25 which is this friday and I cant wait to hear the baby and find out if things are okay. I have literally been sick with something for over a month now. Seems like I get over one thing and something else has popped up. I finally went to the Emergency room after we took the kids to Chuck-e-cheese for the 1st time. I woke up with horrible cramps, couldnt hear out of my right ear, my eye had been glued shut for the past 3 mornings and was horribly red and my throat was so sore and had the green crap in the back of it. I knew it was finally time to see a dr. We got home and I changed and headed to the hospital and got there at 6, there were literally NO seats there. A guy with a laptop got up to plug his charger in but I thought he was getting up and so I sat down, needless to say, I didnt get any good looks for that one.. I sat there for 3 hours before someone called my name and it was just to come up to the desk and they took my vitals there and told me to sit back down. My cell phone died an hour after being there so I had nothing to do, nobody to talk to and everytime they called someone's name I would get more and more angry. At 11:30 (5 1/2 hours of waiting) they called my name and took me back this time, or so I thought. They weighed me, took my temp and asked me some questions. The doctor was already in the room when I got back there and after asking me the questions he came over and literally karate chopped me in my back right where I told him it was hurting and made the pain 10x worse than what it was before. They did a throat culture and then sent me to do a urine sample. I thought I was going back to the room and the nurses sent me right back out into the waiting room. All this, there was a man that had come in at around 8 that had dropped 900 lbs on his foot and pretty much demolished his foot. He was still waiting when I came out from doing my tests. I sat and waited about 30-45 more minutes and they called me back again and this time actually took me to a room. I got my gown on and laid in bed and tried to get some rest. The doctor came in and told me that I had a HORRIBLE uti and that was causing a lot of my vomitting, cramps and fevers. He then told me that my throat was strep throat positive and that the medicine they usually give that I couldnt take being pregnant just to keep drinking hot tea with lemon and honey and sucking on cough drops. He gave me some meds and walked out and when the nurse came in to discharge me, I told her I needed to talk with the dr about my eye and ear. He came in an hour later and looked at my eye and my ear for the first time and said that my eye was pink eye and my ears both had fluid behind the eardrums. so he added another prescription for my eye and told me to take benedryll(sp) for my ear. So I walked out finding out I had a horrible uti, fluid in both my eardrums, pink eye and strep throat. I honestly feel like im falling apart. One thing that got to me though was that after waiting 7 1/2 hours, when I walked out the guy that dropped the 900 lbs on his foot STILL hadnt seen anyone! The kids have been home with me for a while now and I can honestly see how close they are getting. Eventhough they get on each others nerves a lot, they really are closer than they were. On Valentines day our little girl turned 2! It was such a bittersweet moment and tore me up inside knowing shes 2 now. We had her birthday party this past weekend and decorated it all in minnie mouse, her favorite!  She calls her "me-mou" Im so lucky to have such a beautiful family.

Enough of the ranting... were going to the park today to have another picnik. Shane's at work and I want to enjoy the day with the kids.